MUSIC: Augustana-Boston

In Boston, no one knows my name

 

MUSIC: HONNE- Good Together

Thanks to my classmate (I think he's Juancho) at my Visual Communication class for playing this at the room while we're at class break. I've been listening to this un-mainstreamed British electro pop duo from time-to-time whenever I feel good.

come listen to them young folks, I wont fail you.

1994

I felt bit jealous that some of the great things happened 3 years before I was born. Oh 1994, just a rundown of things I'd sure admire then while I'm in my Guess rompers.

The only time I admired the ever obnoxious Jim Carey (The Mask)

Bad Gurl (Leon: The Professional)

1994 really reminds me of Reality Bites, tbh. #semiotic

'til then, they revolutionized the coffee shop scene (F.R.I.E.N.D.S)

The birth of awesome gaming experience (Playstation opening)

Oh Sunday

Sunday. Sundae. Sundaze

My breakfast. Milk Tea and a novel by A.M. Homes

Varsity- so sad, so sad

Film: Fast Food Nation (2006)

First of all, Donald Trump won the US 2016 Elections.

Hahaha!

Going back, I've been fascinated with immigration films since I watched Jim Sheridan's In America (2003) it's a about an Irish immigrant family trying to survive the ghetto living in New York same as this film who got an Academy Award for Best Picture; Brooklyn starring the ever darling Saoirse Ronan (The Lovely Bones)

Since then, I craved for immigration-themed films and yesterday I found this quite unpopular film Fast Food Nation (2006) directed by Richard Linklater, director of Boyhood and Before Sunrise sequels. 

The film is about the dark side of America's dark side on its growing fast food industry. It showcases different perspectives of characters who works in the same company coming from the corporate person (played by Greg Kinear, Little Miss Sunshine), to the fast food servers, down to the factory workers. It also revolves around the misfortunate lives of Mexican 'borders' in Estados Unidos.

It reminded me of this 2004 Morgan Spurlock's documentary film Supersize Me, in which weeks after its release Mcdonald's corporation turned down their 'Supersize' meal to the public.

Films like these really awakens many people in the reality that's been polished for many years. It's such a courage act to published a film just like that, sadly it isn't popular just like nowadays entertainment movies.

Pixie Chic

I've been rocking my new Pixie haircut ever since the start of the semester. Everyone at school was shocked at my new hairdo since I've had long blondie-ish tresses back in summer. Some were impressed because they say I looked cute. (Yey!) others say "Were you on drugs" t(-__-)t

Last, last week I had it trimmed again and this time, it's waaaay more pixie than ever.

Webcam shot

Do I look pretty? Haha! Sometimes I miss my long hair too. It's hard to manage this kind of haircut cause there were times you're oddly seen with a lipstick on. Anyhow, I liked it and I've been getting compliments that I look more girly and cute in this haircut.

PS. Thank you Demi Moore for believing me that girls still do look good even on boy cut.

Demi Moore in Ghost (1990)

Music: Michelle Branch- Breathe

This one is my favorite song way back in 2003 Hahaha! I miss the days when girls still wear guy-ish clothes. Oh good ol' 00's

Whatsup Ketchup

A lot of things had happen for the past few months. I know I get a little bit quiet here in my blog so this is just a blog update post.

Nothing much grand happened but for the past few weeks I've done watching Game of Thrones Season 6, so I started the new one which is MTV's Awkward

I also bought a new desktop for my room, a cute lil british soldier bedsheet prints. and a new coffee mug cause I treat every coffee sip as a sacred ritual lol. 

 

I named that cactus 'Phoenix' capital of Arizona state. I got that bedsheet from SM Department store for P275 and that P30 for the coffee mug.

PS.

I have two new crushes, Matty Mckibben from MTV's Awkward and Gabe Lewis from The Office. 

Hahaha!

Music: Phantom Planet- California

I know what you thinkin sugar :) yeah, The OC

We, The Strong

This song goes to all the people whose been hurt, sad, lonely. We don't give up :)

To you,
I'm ready to let you go.

"Fixing up the car to drive in it again, when you're in pain you think you had enough. Up & Up. Don't ever give up."

two souls, one heart

It’s funny how I find greatness on mundane things in life. One of it was witnessing two people exchanging vows to God- yep, a wedding.

Many people sees wedding in different views, usually to witness their friend getting married, some were just forced because it’s their relative. Others just come for the food. But in my view, I see wedding as an accomplished mission.

I remember what Plato said in his book The Symposium. “According to Greek mythology, humans were originally created with four arms, four legs and a head with two faces. Fearing their power, Zeus split them into two separate parts, condemning them to spend their lives in search of their other halves.”

You see, there’s a billion people in the world. And for me finding “The One” is an example of magic. Maybe there’s a reason why there are these hopless romantic 50 year olds whose still unmarried. It’s because they haven’t find their “The One”.

So if you’re now married, just got married, Be Thankful; because you found the one. Your what they call “Better half”. So fill that flute wine glass up! And cheers!

For here or to go?

I love coffee houses. The excitement of walking through the door, respecting the push/pull sign so you wont create a faux pas, the aroma of roasted coffee beans. Heavenly haven. But sometimes, that excitement will turn down by 'some' intimidating baristas. And the excitement was gone.

In the Philippines where I live in, people have a mentality that getting a cup of Starbucks in hand means you're 'sosyal' or what they mean is 'classy'. I got that mentality growing up so I thought of Starbucks as a mecca for classy people or businessman- which I find it intimidating when you're 12 years old wearing a High School Musical shirt.

But that mentality was busted for a long-long time ago. Anyway, I once had an unpleasant experience with a barista. She had this "Passive Agressive" bravado kinda thing which I found intimidating. She was smiling though but you know when a person is being sarcastic, but I smiled back. I stated my order which is a single Grande Caramel Macchiato, asked my name, and then she asked me a thought provoking question. "For here or To go?" like what???????????????

I was standing there, dead air. Then she said "Iinumin mo ba dito or i-te take out mo sya?" were you gonna drink it here or like to have it in a to go cup? I choose to take it out.

But wait, I find her wrong. She said "For here or To go?". That's wrong!!! that must be "Would you like it to be in a mug or for a to go cup?" right? do I make sense? Haha!

Anyway, that's just some kind of funny unpleasant experience. The next time a barista will do that to me with their "Starbucks English" accent (Philippines has that, may not apply to US or England) I'll ask them if they speak Valyrian or Dothrakis and without a word. I'll just say Dracarys. Hahaha!

Existential Crisis

Back in May, I suffered from what so called 'Existential Crisis'. It's funny that by the age of 19, I started worry about my life for the next 5 years. I mean like seriously, I'm too young to worry about my future. 

There's a lot of factors that triggered my anxiety of my existence in Gaia. First is about college, I'm in my junior year now in my university and that means when I get back at school this August; I'll have to start my thesis. My university was known for producing good talents in the field of Communication- which is my major. And in my field, it requires a lot of creativity and hardworks just to be criticized by audiences. There's also A LOT of talented youngsters in my major, you should be competitive and always has fresh ideas. I also suffered from Education Fatigue, education fatigue is same as Senioritis, that's what my drama professor said. It happens usually in mid-year of your school years. It feels like you're tired of school and just wanna lay in bed 'till you get bored.

Another factor is about what career I'm gonna get into after college. I've saw some of my colleague which in their mid 20's doing job hoping from one work to another. It's like their never happy from their job because they never settle. I was scared that I could be like them 5 years from now. There's a lot of job position in my field anyway, since I'm a Communication student, which is like the umbrella of all the branches of media. I can be in print journalism, advertising agency, TV Network. I know I have the guts to work my ass off but after I got rejected from my job interview at Starbucks (Which is I kinda played :P) I was kinda terrified to get rejected again. and again. and again. But still I'm a young person full of idea. It's their loss. Hahahaha suckah! kidding.

Lastly is about the way of living here in the Philippines. It never got into my mind before to have an American Dream, like living there. This is kinda hard to understand and you might wanna judge me. But I wished (before back when I was having crisis) that Americans haven't loss the battle to the Japanese or that I wished Gen. Douglas MacArthur came back. I don't know why I'm brainwashed to live in the States or in Canada. I was like kinda itchy to graduate college and apply for a Visa. And work abroad and settle. I was kinda tired of living in the city life here in Metro Manila where it's hard to commute because of high density of people, and the traffic. Also the fact that being a Homosexual here in the Philippines isn't accepted but just tolerated. I was thinking that if I lived my ass of to US or Canada, where being a chick with a dick is less opressed or accepted. Maybe I can get the love I deserve. Well I never know until I get there though. I'm also afraid that if I get there, the grass is much greener from where I came from. But Whatever, fuck it destiny.

Lelaina Pierce, Valedictorian, can't get a job (Reality Bites, 1994, Universal Pictures)

Anyhow, I've found the culprit on these anxieties, it's because I was rushing things. I'm rushing things that should be happening at the right place and the right time. And that's the habit I should've stop.

Thankfully, I'm now happy and contented on my current situation. I've put aside my plans on getting a visa for a moment 'till I get a stabled job and earn money. I'm now focused on school and for my job internship next summer. Though sometimes reality bites me like a mosquito, I easily bust it through living the moment with a cup of caramel macchiato in my hand. :)

Odd things you'll find in my wallet

I was in Starbucks in Aseana City last friday morning, waiting for my friend Karl to finish his job orientation. I was so bored that morning waiting for his job interview to be done. My guy was still sleeping so I can't talk to him 'till he was up. That's why I'll just share you guys whats inside my wallet.

Caramel Macchiato

My wallet from Marithe Francois Girbaud

Starbucks card, ATM card, H &M card

Bag warranty and some photographs of me

Old ID from High school and me when I did kiddie crew in 2007 LOL :D

Discount coupon and a Condom- there's an urban legend putting a condom in your wallet will give you luck.

College games tickets, Theater play tickets and a cross in my pocket from my friend to keep me guided

How lucky I am

source: takepart.com

I’ve been enrolled in a private school throughout my school years. I never experienced being on a public school. Which is I kinda wanna be when I was little since my playmates around neighborhood goes to public school and I felt out of place. Anyway, throughout high school, I’ve excelled my studies. I mean not that really an A-student but, I’m the type of person who ‘work hard, play hard’. Which means I value my friends/ classmates more than schooling; which is a priority.

Now that I’m in college, my mom lets me pay the tuition fee (I don’t pay my tuition fee, still my parents send me off to college. That’s how it goes here in the Philippines, unless you really have to provide yourself, unlike in other countries, you have to work your ass off to get yourself in college). And you know, college isn’t a joke.

It requires a lot of money and hard works. So the first time my mom handed me a brick fortune of cash, I felt ashamed. Seriously. I felt privileged, loved, and ashamed at the same time. That moment, I blurted the words ‘Wow’ and ‘Gosh’. (I can’t say Thank You, it’s so cheesy LOL) and my mom asked ‘why?’ and I just said nothing.

I went upstairs and looked at the cash that I have on my hand. And I was thinking how this person let go a huge amount of money, they worked themselves and I just spend it. That moment I cried inside and I promised to myself that I will work hard and well to graduate college and payback what they’ve gave to me. Though we weren’t a kind of family that says ‘I love you’ but what they’re providing me is an unspoken truth of Love.

OBSESSIONS #2

People: Tom Hiddleston

I had a crush on Tom Hiddleston. Just realized it when he started dating the girlfriend of all nation-Taylor Swift. Don't ask me why I like him. He's English, and if you ask me what comes up in my mind if you say English, there's only two words. Either 'Accent' or 'Uncut'.

Beauty: NYX Matte Lip cream in Stockholm

I love it, I'm getting addicted to nude make up

Dog: Lucy

She's cute, crazy, and I love her. Just how much I love her owner, LOL.

Disclaimer: All pictures were not mine

MUSIC: Chelsea Lankes- Secret

This underated song by Chelsea Lankes is perfect for friday nights and Girls Night Out. Play this while putting on your make-up ritual before meeting your girls. xx

seven hours away

source: http://www.hippoquotes.com/airport-quotes-tumblr

seven hours away,

I love you; day by day

sun kissed skin is all you want,

just your voice is all I want

in this crazy world we have,

you're the only only person I don't want to get sad

I always whisper to my faceless God,

every night I pray that one day

despite being seven hours away,

punch, drunk, love, 

we will meet someday

The art of contentment

It's hard to be contented for a person whose a 'Goal getter'. I know being a Goal getter is a good attitude because it's a key to your success. But sometimes, being a Goal getter isn't always good. There's also a downside, it's the itch of being discontented.

Well there's also a popular saying that "Life is Unfair". Yeah, life is unfair when it does not cooperate in your favor. When it does not cooperate in your favor, you'll get sad. Because the truth is you can't always get what you want. And that's fine because it will teach you the  art of contentment.

source: giphy.com

"Without pain, we couldn't know joy"- John Green, The Fault in Our Stars

See? That's right, so if you're sad right now because life doesn't cooperate with you, It's FINE. You'll get through of it.

For now, think about that It's not an excuse to be sad because of the things that you don't have, but it's making on something that you do have.

Maybe, this is not the right time for you to have that thing. Don't worry because good things comes to those who wait and it will come to you soon, in God's perfect time. *wink*

MOVIES: A lot like Love

I've been watching feel-good movies ever since I found out that indie films were nice. I got so dependent on them since indie films gave you this unexplainable sober feeling towards the end of the film. But this time, I kept Wes Anderson films aside for a while and hit some Chick-flick.

A lot like Love is a 2005 Romantic-Comedy/Drama film directed by Nigel Cole, starring Ashton Kutcher and Amanda Peet. The film mainly revolves about the building up "friendly" relationship of two strangers met on the plane to New York city over the course of 7 years.

I found this film while playing shuffle of early 2000's Alternative Rock playlist on Youtube. It just so happen that Aqualung's Brighter than Sunshine was the OST of this film. And I'm a real sucker for Motion Pictures Soundtracks #CrazyAss

For me, this movie is a combination of Before Sunrise (1999) + Reality Bites (1994) + Alanis Morisette hit song Ironic since it's a Boy meets Girl film about an overachiever guy and a simply troubled girl.

source: giphy.com

The film has a great list of soundtracks too, Third-Eye Blind, The Getaway People, Eagle Eye Cherry to name a few. Click this.  Overall, I will give this film 4 Stars rating since the story was a bit predictable and unique at the same time.

I survived Depression

Ana Mouyis https://giphy.com/gifs/abstract-falling-paint-on-glass-3osxYCitDjuhyaRinK

I survived depression

I've hit rock bottom-No I'm not broke, I mean yea because I'm a college student but no, not in terms of moolah.

I got depressed. And it's crazy.

Okay, it started when my grandma (whose I've been taking care of) passed away on May 1st. Damn, she was gone. I didn't cry.

I thought it is just that I want her to be rested since she's been very week and I can see her suffering in the special bed on our living room. But no, I realized after a week she was buried that she was gone.

I call it 'Delayed Depression'. It's a real soul eater, I tell you.

Why delayed? Okay, two of my aunt lives abroad. One is coming from California, the other works in Dubai. Since my grandma died, they have to come to respect for their mom before she was buried six feet underground.

And I know for that moment that our house will be filled again with great people since A. It's a reunion for my grandma's kids and B. Yah, reunion.

They stayed in our house for two weeks. When your house is filled with these balikbayan people you haven't see for years, for sure, your hospitality will hinder the sadness brought by their presence.

Gosh, for me, the whole month of May is a a total rollercoaster ride.

Even though May is my birth month, thank God my depression didn't really messed up my Summer classes. Which kinda did, but at least. I SURVIVED

Fuck, whoo. 💨

Summer Job

"Work work work work work work work, you see me at the work work work work work work work."- Rihanna

So my University announced that our school year for 2016-2017 will be changed from the usual Philippine school calendar which is starting from June-March and now will be shifted to August-May. So it means that after I took my summer classes this May, I still do have two months to be young & free for the summer.

But since your girl doesn't want to practice slackerism anymore (fuck u Reality Bites) because it makes me fat. I decided to look out for some Part-time job that would fit my skills. Instead of wasting my time on the internet all day, why don't I just make my body grind and earn a lil amount of ka-ching.

ctto | hello, hello jobstreet

So I tried to list down my skills to see what job that would fit in me. The following has an explicit material, scroll down twice if you don't have a happy cell in your body called Humor.

• Jason is street smart
• Jason can cook
• Jason is funny
• Jason can do both Blue and White collar jobs *winks*
• Jason is now legal to work, He's 18
• Jason has a big titties
• Jason is a Communication major, he can talk two languages and can talk to animals just like the girl on braces on Nickelodeon's The Wildthorneberries
• Jason is ummmmm...

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so I come up to my preffered jobs: to work as a service crew at Starbucks, To work in a Call Center watashi, or to work at Hooters- nuh uh not a good idea, I don't have a vagina and my tits was only brought by my weird genes.

For now, I've only passed my resume to Starbucks. And hoping I could get a job this summer.

Music: The Runaway Club- Good Together

Lucky to have this song poped up on my Spotify suggetions. This is a good one, give it a shot, listen to it! Being young & reckless never felt so good.

love, they just come around

I've never being tired of love. I've had my heart broken before. 

There is a picture in my wall, it's a cross-stitch art, it says "Don't ever say good bye to love; for it will come back and knocks you down"

so I didn't.

I've talked to some people, I always say to them that "I never felt someone loved me before-romanticaly."

You must be prolly thinking what the heck am I pointing to say..

well...

Back in March 2... your girl just got her heart flipped

What I'm just tryin to say is that Yes, I am now taken :)

#LoveWon

Music: Panic! at the Disco- New Perspective

Lol. I was in 6th grade when I heard this song while watching Jeniffer's Body (2009) with my classmates. #feels

Plans...

Sunday, 7PM, Valentines day 2016. I was about to hit my night jog weekly ritual when I realized that there's too many people in Luneta Park. So Instead of emerging to people, I decided to stroll around the red light district area-which is Malate.

I bought a cup of coffee. Seeing foreigners in this area isn't new to me, it just amazes me how they find joy in this jungle city when the locals try hard to leave. Maybe they find joy through the experience of odd culture, or the hospitality of Filipinos.

I turned right to P. Faura St. heading to Grand Riviera Suites, when I reached the place, I settled in for a while. I found myself staring at this building across from where I'm sitting. It's the Embassy of The United States of America. America, The land of free and brave. On that moment I speak to my self-"Why shouldn't I get a Visa after College?" I smiled, then continued walking.

***

My plan for this week is to inquire for getting a Passport, cause I don't have. My mom kept ruining my plan of getting one on what hell I-don't-know reason. That's it for right now. Wish me luck, shamrock. 

Music: Snow Patrol- Signal Fire

Look how these kids do their drama recital.. :') this music was a OST of Spiderman 3

"The perfect words never crossed my mind, cause there was nothing in there but you."

Music video by Snow Patrol performing Signal Fire. (C) 2007 Polydor Ltd. (UK)

Feeling: Lost

For the past few weeks, I found myself lost in reality. It started, I guess when I had my diarrhea. Saturday morning after a nightful of bowel movement-I was at the mall, I saw the reflection myself outside Forever 21 store, looking like I was stoned, just walking with people, passing store-to-store.

Scarlett Johansson in Lost in Translation (2003)

I drink coffee, chainsmoke, watch indie films, eat breakfast at lunch, listen to New Order, coffee, sleep. MAN I'm in a Belljar! then I decided to change.

I'm like Winona Ryder in Reality Bites (1994)

 It was a week full of confusion and hiraeth. Thank God, I am now regaining myself again. Currently, I am writing this at 5:19 AM on a Tuesday morning. Yesterday, my sociology professor let us watch Eat.Pray.Love a movie about a lady whose having trouble finding herself too. Well at least, Julia Roberts and I knows how it feels like when your life is in standstill. Lols :P

xx,

EW!

There are things that should've be buried underground. Like my old blog :P Lols Hahahaha! Nakakahiya pero here's the link jasonseverything.blogspot.com feel free to laugh. Tignan mo naman yung English grammar ko diyan! :D

OBSESSIONS #1

People: John Krasinski
John Krasinski gained his popularity on the hit comedy sit-com "The Office" in which he plays a role of an office guy named 'Jim'. I like his role on the show because of his funny antics, hilarious expressions, and his charm. Back in 2010, Krasinski married Emily Blunt. Blunt starred in some films like Sunshine Cleaning, The Devil wears Prada, and for her upcoming hit film 'The Girl on the Train' based from the novel by Paula Hawkins.

Fashion & Beauty: MAC Chili
I was introduced to this beauty essential while reading Saab Magalona-Bacarro's (oh diba complete) blog post spellsaab.juice.ph. When I got a chance to visit a MAC store, I tried to test it on my lippie and it looks good. It's not too red like the MAC Ruby Woo and not too pale. Perfect for casual days and night outs.

https://www.pinterest.com/pin/113504853078119621/

Trivia: Saab's blog post introduced me to my current favorite film Reality Bites starring Winona Ryder.


Food: 7/11 Cinnamon Coffee
I hate cinnamon when I was little. Even the smell of it makes me puke :P pero sabi nga nila "Da more you hate, da more you love". That's why I'm addicted to it now. Sadly, 7/11 stores were turning their instant coffee machines to City Blends. Wherein Cinnamon Coffee isn't part of the menu. Sucks!

Meanwhile, you can get their Cinnamon Frost coffee in some un-developed 7/11 stores like 7/11 España Ave. corner P. Campa St.

Music: The Killers- Shot at the Night

I've known The Killers for several years, some of my favorite songs of them were 'Mr. Brightside' wherein it looks like the music video was inspired from a classic novel and  'Smile like you mean It' (Madeon Remix).

But take a look at this one fellas, this video will surely relive all those butterflies in your stomach. This is my type of romance :)

Trivia: Did you know that The Killers got their band name from the name of the fictional band in New Order's 2001 Crystal video.

Johnny & Winona: such a gorgeous couple

Look ath this gorgeous couple. Every Gen X teenagers knows this perfect couple; Johny Depp and Winona Ryder. They're so perfect I can name them "The Pretty and Reckless (boy)" here's the proof.

But sadly, there's no such thing as perfect in this world. :(

 these words..

putangina, sino ba kasi nag-pauso ng walang forever!? *sigh*

winona forever