Wonderwall thoughts

Cher from Clueless (Disclaimer: Gif not mine)

I know you've done this thing before-- lying in your bed thinking what were you doing in this earth? asking yourself questions like "am I born for a reason?" like "do I have a mission for God?" Thinking about infinities and constellations in the sky. Okay jibberish talking aside but seriously, I might smack the person who's going to wake me up while I'm in a state of trance. *kidding*

Sometimes I feel like a valedictorian, a winner, an achiever (Not in academics) but back when *spg alert* I was in my moms' internal organ; one out in a million sperm racing to the finish line-- that's my momma's egg cell. 'told you SPG. Another thought of mine was about a 'timeless place'. Weird I know. For example, what if time, calendar, clock, and even compass was not invented back then. Only light and darkness-- no tomorrow, no yesterday. If your birthday is on friday and today is monday. You can just wait for 'later' to celebrate it. Nah, forget about it. You'll only confused yourself.

Breaking an epiphany is an enchanting feeling. It's like you're in the shoes of Walter Mitty. But sometimes, being an skeptical philosopher can lead you in a bad state. "Joke center" for your peers if they don't have that same outlook in life just like yours. Don't worry kid, welcome to the Dead poets society. I wrote this article for you, and for all of us whose still not stopping to look for an elixir in the humanity while looking at a blank space or to that wonderwall.

Enjoy the ride

"Focus on the goal." That is what many people are into since the beginning of everything on who you want to be.

 My mom is an elementary teacher. So back in my little days, I was really good in school. I aced every exam that was given to me. Homeworks are piece of cake because of my mom's guidance, therefore people thought me to be smart. But as I grow older, I realized that I was learning from my own experiences. Like no need for more parental guidances. One night, as I took a sip of my hot chocolate. I asked my mom several questions about education. I was bored on our conversation so I pulled a joke on her "Mama, gusto mo ba magkaroon ako ng Latin honor pag graduate ko sa college?" She replied "Kung kaya mo, pero kung mahi-hirapan ka lang eh huwag mo pilitin. Ang mahalaga makapag tapos ka ng pag-aaral at walang bagsak. Studying should be enjoyable, hindi masyadong seryoso". In that moment, I realized on why I'm so obsessed for that high grade I was reaching for like a thirsty man on a desert. 

Maybe some of you are thinking why am I telling the conversation we talked about.  It's because many people is aiming for the goal so 'focused' that they don't even realizes anymore the value of journey through reaching their dreams. Yes, it is a good attitude to be focused towards your goals in life but in the end of the day, it is more important that there is a certain part in your life that you become recklessly happy not even feeling regretful. But that mindset in people's mind would never change unless they will put a little rearrangement on their own perspectives and outlook.

People are diamonds, who you are right now is the result of your achievements and actions. "Live, laugh, and love." and 'Carpe diem' seize everything starting today. The next time you are starting to aim for that goal again, don't forget to have fun because your journey is a long-long road that has full of bus stops. So later in life, you can always cherish that moment while looking at the old photo album on that 'goal' you whatever wanted to.